It is amazing how quickly life changes! As reported in our last post, we were elated when we found out in June that we were expecting... and the news got even better from there. We soon learned that we had identical twin boys on the way. Gavin and Cooper immediately became the lights of our lives, and although I was feeling quite sick most of the time, our days centered around preparing for their arrival.
On August 30th, our lives changed again, this time for the worse. I went into pre-term labor that resulted in an "inevitable miscarriage." We had to say goodbye to our boys and hello to very broken lives. We were broken mentally, emotionally, and in spirit, and for a while it was unclear how we would be able to move forward in such a dark time.
However, we have moved forward with love lighting the way. Trevor and I learned just how strong our relationship is, and we both learned how amazing our family and friends are. The outpouring of love and support was overwhelming, and it has truly helped us move out of the darkness.
Today, the future seems much brighter. I am completely healed and healthy, and we have been given the go-ahead to try for another baby in a couple of months, so we are filled with a new sense of hope and promise. A piece of our hearts has been forever lost, but we are so thankful to have been given the opportunity to know and love two little spirits that will be with us forever. I can't say everyday is a good day, but I can say that each day we feel a little less broken.
Monday, October 4, 2010
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3 comments:
I'm so happy to see you blogging again!! You have been in my thoughts every single day... I can only imagine what a difficult time you have been through. Your strength is amazing - you inspire me in so many ways. Hope to see lots more blog posts from you!! Love ya!
Tammy and Trevor - I am so sorry for your loss. I had no idea. You have been on my mind constantly. This might explain it. You will be in my prayers. Know that you are loved and have any support you need from us.
I wish I could give you a big hug right now Tammy.
Love, Leah
The wound will heal but the scar left behind will be forever and serve as a reminder. All will be easier with time. I love you and Trev more than I can express and Gavin and Cooper will always be my first grandbabies!
Love,
mama
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